Well, last week I made a decision and acted upon it which has kind of thrown my life up side down. After months and months of being unhappy and feeling slighted I quit my job. I just finally had enough and just made the phone call. I can't express enough how relieved I feel to be done with that place and knowing that I will no longer have to wake up with knots in my stomach not knowing what hell I would endure that day. I truly feel like after many nights of prayer and thinking long and hard about what I needed to do, I finally heard God's voice. I think he's probably been telling me all along what I needed to do but I havent truly been listening. I'm thankful that I have an amazing family and am so blessed with amazing friends in my life who have endured hours upon hours of constant complaining and whining from me. I have received so much support from these great people and have heard so much good advice and words of encouragement along the way. Hopefully now I am on a path to happiness, even if I am unemployed right now.
Friday was my last day at my job, I walked out of there with no regrets...except a slight feeling of "what now?!". I do not have a job, I have no income coming in, but it's OK I'll figure it out. I have a really scary interview next week and until I get a good paying job I'll hopefully find a temporary job doing something I've never done before, anything different, anything new, is welcomed.
It's time for change, change is happening. I'm scared out of my mind but I'm ready to do it. With these wonderful people that God has blessed me with in my life, I'll figure out what I need to do. I finally feel as though I can breathe again, and I feel like for the first time in a couple of years my life is in MY hands and I can be myself.
