My eyes have been opened wide the last few days and I am in a strange in between world now. Many people I know and love are hurting, they have lost loved ones in unimaginable ways and some have lost loved ones that lived long long lives. Neither is ever easy. But it does make you question your own mortality.
SO many things, trivial things, that I stress about every day, get mad about, annoyed with, are NOT important. My dinner didn’t come out of the oven the way I expected it to. The party didn’t go exactly as I’d planned, I’m 10 minutes late for something…is that important? NO. I get so easily annoyed with people, why? I care so much about how other people think of me or what they say about me, does that matter? No…none of it does…
What does matter?
God matters. The relationship I have with him, which continues to grow and become stronger. My faith in HIM to heal all wounds, physical, spiritual and emotional.
People matter, my wonderful family, amazing parents, loving siblings, nephews, aunts uncles, cousins, all of them-the unconditional love we share and the bonds we have. My partner in life Luke, our love for one another, the time we spend together.
Friendships, old and new, casual and deep. Those people you touch on a daily basis just by your mere presence on this earth. People you love, respect, enjoy and laugh with. Those who you can cry with, yell at, vent to. People who do not pass judgment on you.
People you don’t know, but might know you, those who see you every day, see you smiling, laughing, exuding confidence, and sharing your faith with others.
Being positive, optimistic, having the faith to know that Gods Grace can get you threw the darkest of times.
Prayer matters. Praying, talking to God, thanking him for everything you have and everything you are, praying and asking Him to make you better, help you hear Him, asking Him to watch over others, heal them, comfort them, love them, show them the way.
I feel as though I’ve gained a whole new perspective on life. I want to be better, more positive, more optimistic influence on people. If I were taken from this world today what would people say about me, would they say I was a fun, positive, happy person who influenced them in a good way? I hope so. But I will strive from now on to ensure they do.
I am trying to share these new insights into the importance of people and relationships and love in our lives. I am trying to reach out to people who need this new perspective too. I want everyone to see and feel what I am right now. This petty, trivial junk is NOT important. What’s important is how you handle it, how you talk to God about it….How we influence people, that we make a difference in someone’s life, it doesn’t have to be THOUSANDS of lives, ONE life.
