Two years ago Luke and I moved in to apartment 705. We were so excited and proud to be moving in to "our" own place, it had two bathrooms and two bed rooms, and "SO MUCH storage". Luke proposed to me in the living room of that apartment, we planned our wedding in that apartment, we danced in the living room, came home from our honeymoon as a married couple to that apartment, found out we were expecting in that apartment, and brought Easton home to our first home in that apartment. It represented so much, our decisions as a couple, and as a family. It was OUR first place, it was not much, just a small little apartment, but it was ours. Today I hate it, its covered in mouse feces and stinks, the management has treated us so badly in the last few months and we have found a new place to rent, it is smaller, but it will be wonderful, because it will be new and it will be a place we can make our own, again.
Its a bittersweet thing, to move to a new place, two years ago I loved that apartment....today I hate it. I hope we can fill the new place with as many and more loving memories as we did apartment 705.
This week we take Easton to an appointment at Cooks in Fort Worth. We will set a date, at this appointment, for his first cleft repair surgery. ANother bittersweet moment. I love his face, his lip, the fact that he can move his little lip in two directions. I hate that he has to endure any pain, that his face has to change, I pray that the change is ONLY a physical one and that his little sweet personality stays in tact.
When we first found out about his cleft lip/palate, we were so afraid of what was to come. What would he look like, would he be able to eat, how many surgeries would he have to go through etc....And now that the ball has begun to roll, we know surgery is in our near future and I pray that I am woman enough and a good enough Mother that I can handle it and be strong for Easton. Its a bittersweet thing, we are changing this precious face that God gave our sweet boy, changing it so that he can be given the chance to live a normal life, be able to eat and function normally, but we love this sweet face. Its an emotional roller coaster that I think we are all struggling with, but I know God is with us and will guide us.
It has been a trying time for our family, but we are stronger than ever, and I look forward to the future!
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Our first house was mouse infested in the winter, and now we laugh about how many times the trap would go off in a day. In the end the good memories kind of find their way in front of the bad, and those are the ones you will hold on to...
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You are an inspiration my friend!! Sweet Easton is going to be just fine because he has a wonderful couple of parents!!! I love you my dear.friend!! Hugs to that beautiful, precious little man!
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